our zoo experience

Last weekend was our first trip as a family (another words with Lane) to go on a mini vacation. and although it was just over the weekend...that was enough at the time. We were originally going to Ft. Worth for Calob's wedding and decided a few weeks back that we would take the kids to the zoo and do some shopping since we were going to be up that way. Last year after our trip to the SA zoo Shanda had told me to check out the FW zoo...she said it was tons better and much cooler. wow she was right. I have to say that the drive up went well...the kids slept most of the way, the only thing that was difficult about the whole thing was the fact that everyone (including us) were off their schedule....we keep such odd hours that it just cant happen when we go out of town...i mean the zoo doesnt stay open till 10pm!!!! so kaelynn was cranky at times but nothing that i wouldnt already expect given the circumstances. Gail went with us so that she could help me with the kids during the wedding--well that was the original plan however when we got there i decided just to keep the kids at the hotel since they were tired and i was too and i couldnt imagine tryin to keep them still and quiet in church ...they had already done so much sitting so far. Sunday we were up at the crack of dawn (8 am but that is WAY early for all of us) and made it to the zoo by 9:30...they werent even open yet but that gave me a chance to feed lane and get everything ready. it was so beautiful there. i would encourage anyone contmeplating a zoo trip to go to ft. worth, so green and they had waterfalls EVERYWHERE!!! kaelynn liked the monkey exhibit the best i think. well and the one where they had different shells in a boat with water and she could touch all of them. she also got to feed the birds which was fun. they were totally EXHAUSTED after that and they slept all the way until ballinger!! Lane did really well too. we were all soooo tired when we got home and the next day kaelynn didnt get a nap and all she did was cry and cry and cry and cry....i finally put her to bed at 6:30pm ... 6:30!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and she slept until 9am the next day!!!!!!!!!!! WOW....no supper or nothing ... she barely got a bath...she had been out at the ranch with brian so i did make sure i hosed her off, since they had sprayed OFF on her, but still.....i just couldnt believe how much she slept but i have no doubt that some of that was her playing catch up from the weekend. but all is well now. and i cant wait to go back!!!!

perhaps a blessing in disguise....

ok so our trip to the zoo went good, still recovering or i would write more about it. i promise there will be more to come in the following days. just a quick note to say that im soooooooooo very thankful for my wonderful family. Kayleigh Freeman passed away 5-11-09...her dad blogged about it... http://kayleighannefreeman.blogspot.com please read if you get a chance. im prayin for this family...i know they will need a lot of prayers. they never got to take their baby home, but God did bless them with the ability to hold her with no wires or tubes and she got to feel the outside air, two simple things i know everyone takes for granted. im glad i started following her story. it makes me remember when i get frustrated with my own two kids that im blessed to do just that, be frustrated with them. Thank you Lord for my blessings that you have given me and please be with this family in their time of need.

a dr visit for me

ok so today was my doctor visit...i must say i do hate them. i think my least favorite part has to be the weighing in part...i mean...cant we just skip that? must i always step on the scale, it is just depressing. back in january we had decided i would come in at this time to get some prelim lab done just to see where im at when im not preggy. everything came back good or better which was great!!! except my LFT's (liver function tests) ...everything else with my liver looks great so she was stumped as to why they would be high at like 136..i think norms are like 70-90...but she said this just may be where you run and since i have nothing to compare it to we would just do a follow up in month, no visit, just lab. yay!! i also asked about going back on glucophage since it helped me to loose so muc weight before i got pregnant with kaelynn and that the ob had put me on it after i delievered her to help keep it off, and she was like "well......(apprehensive) i guess that would be ok, do you have PCOS?" (ugh yeah read my chart!!) yes.....i said, if you dont want to ill talk to wilson about it, he didnt have a problem the first time. to which she replied "well.....i just dont want you getting pregnant, that would not be a good thing" (ummmm ..... DUH!!!!) yeah i dont want another kid right now, thats true, but i DONT want to gain another 40lbs either!!!!! that was hard as hell to pull off and all i have to do is just look at food and instant 5lbs are added...not to mention that breastfeeding increases my appitite like no bodys business!!! it was frustrating to hear, but im checking with wilson to see if he will put me on it cause you could just tell she was uncomfortable, oh well. we will see what happens...

The INSANE drama of a 2yr old!!!

OMG!!!!! if i have said that once today.....ive said it a hundred times!!!! today was filled with drama drama and more drama....from none other than my little drama llama!!!! kaelynn had to cry about EVERYTHING!!! i once read that a two year old wears their feelings on their shirt sleeve....that was very true today. for some reason she has decided that the potty is not for her. OH HELL NO!!!! we are hitting potty training HARD....so mom has become the mop queen!! thank God i have tile floors and its warm...oh yeah and a new energy efficient washer and dryer...cause i was panties around here like CrAzY now!!! and especially today!!! for the last few days she has had a hard time. my mom says to blame the weather...she has told me that when i was potty training both my sister and i had problems on cloudy days....shes not sure why but we always had many more accidents on those days. it was just a wake up call b/c she had been doing soooo well. i think part of her crying is b/c when lane crys he gets picked up and fed, hugged, something.....soooo that is her way of getting attention....geez like she doesnt get it all the time anyways. then we had to watch Little Einsteins (just the singing entrance mind you) like a billion times ....i know the words by heart now, thank you DVR!!!!! ugh!!!!!! i was ready to get out of the house!! so as soon as brian got up at 8pm (cause he had court today) i said...you get her and im taking lane w/ me to walmart. i get home...no bath, no food, and i get told "well she went in the potty twice for me just fine..." GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was sooooooooo ready for it to be bedtime....here comes 11:15pm....put her in bed...after a little ordeal of NO NO NO NO NO.....with her new pooh bear mine you...yes i thought of her at walmart. then about 10min later i hear her door open...and here she comes peekin around the corner....i was feeding lane..."go get in your room!" (woke lane up...crying...) so i put him down as i hear her door close and i walk in there and go to open it....LOCKED!!!!! OMG!!!! and she is screaming cause she knows what she did!!! oh the drama continued....called brian to find out we did have a key...note to self...new door knob with no lock coming soon....opened the door to crocdile tears....put her back in bed, tucked her in....came out finished feeding lane and just laid him down...........EXGHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .........im sooo enjoying the peace and quiet.....well except that forensic files is on the tv in the background.....

venting from frustration....

why is it children decide to get sick or not feel good or whatever right when its time to go to work? and why is it in this society it seems to be all about that almighty dollar? and while im on the complain train, why is it that i seem to be sooo much more in tune with my kids than i fear brian ever will be--and the answer cant just be b/c he's a male!! once again im at work and my thoughts turn to lane at home. first time he's sick and where am i? shannon.... where do i need to be ?? home i with my baby. i hate the fact that we depend on my pay check just enough that it would be a huge inconvience if i went to part time or prn. and i know thats both brian and my fault. there are "ways" we could cut back, but it would be drastic from the life we have now....but dont think it hasnt crossed my mind more than once. and we might be able to do it w/o selling the house, but it would sure be tight. and that is the selfish part of me....i want more for my kids. i remember how tight it was growing up with mom staying home with us. i remember how we were not the "norm" family b/c mom stayed with us and most of the other kids--both their parents worked. but dont get me wrong ... i loved that my mom was able to go to EVERYTHING. she was ALWAYS there for us b/c she never had a boss to answer to. As it is with nursing i will be able to be there for the kids alot of the time b/c of the schedule i choose to keep. espcially if i stay on at the hospital where there is shift work. but when they are sick i do wish i had the luxury of being able to stay with them...i mean isnt that when you need YOUR mama....when you dont feel well?? and lane hates the bottle so much that not only does my baby not feel well, he's hugery too b/c he isnt eating like he would if i was there. oh i have to stop .... im gonna start crying and that would not be a good thing to do since i still have 8 1/2 hrs before i can be with him.......

Ear Infection

blah....that is what i think of ear infections.....but i am glad it was that trivial thus far. went to see dr. sawyer yesterday, after running fever for a day, and that was the verdict. something told me it would be since about two weeks ago he was stuffy for a few days....now the rest of it has just decided to kick in. red throat and all....but nothing a little ammoxicillin cant clear up im sure. he is also gaining well as usual--17lbs 10oz...wow!!!! big little boy i have. so much so that our new FAVORITE toy is a jumperoo!!! i found it at noah's ark (i hate buying toys they are sooo expensive for the short time used) and it was a cute little rainforest edition by Fisher Price--$45 and looks really good!!! i was so proud!!! and he REALLY goes to town in that thing!!! he is such a mover and a shaker anyway....hmmmm wonder what the weight limit is....
Kaelynn practically tried to give him whiplash today by pushing the seat on it in really quick....man if he can survive his older (smaller) sister this boy can get through anything!! she already poked both of her fingers in his eyes (mind you she got both of them on two seperate days) which now means we have lovely green drainage we are treating with gentamycin drops.....ugh.....but to her defense she was just trying to show me his eyes.....i mean come on mom he's only 5 months old, i didnt think you had seen his eyes yet...let me point to them..i mean poke at them for you!!!! GEEZ!!!!! oh well, he's doing good considering i know he does not feel well...although brian has already called tonight with the typical "he wont eat" business....sometimes (well alot of the time) i just wish i didnt HAVE to work!!!!!!!!!